It’s very rare that one gets to choose one’s own name. In my case, a major lapse in judgment resulted in the name “Candy, “ despite having access to a slew of other perfectly good names.
My last name, Poses, was a happy accident. My website address was candyposes.com; I loved the multiple meanings behind it. “Poses” could be interpreted as a noun or a verb, altering the interpretation of “Candy poses.”
As my journey into modeling progressed, I realized that I needed a last name in order to differentiate myself from the other misguided girls out there who had also, in fits of insanity resembling my own, chosen Candy as their nom de nude modeling.
After mulling over what an appropriate last name would be (hopefully one that would give some dignity to, or at least reduce the idiocy of, my first), a friend pointed out something- I already had, unintentionally, given myself one. All one had to do was look at the address of my site.
So, my name became Candy Poses. It served as a sentence, a noun, and something to go by. Later on I realized that it had a fourth, darker meaning.
“Poses” can be interpreted as something less than light heartened- something more than just literally posing for a picture. It can also imply that one is hiding something; that a different face is being shown to the world.
The more public I become, with both this blog and my modeling, the more relevant the fourth meaning becomes.
“Candy Poses”- it’s a name, a noun, a verb, and lastly, an identity that’s further and further removed from my real life self.
Photography by Taj, taken in October, 2006.
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